yui8_lin @ 2010-12-31T21:32:00 ~ Ninth entry
is something memorable. The fact that I double entry I posted in one day say ... But
pseudo me this day, is to write things that I} {I want to remember later, and this is one of those things that I would remember.
climbed a fic!: New Opportunity
may not be a big deal, well in fact it is ... But I would like to recall that year I post a fic and over a KyuMin.
The plot starts something angst, but inevitably ends up as fluff super me. So there is an 8-page oneshot word, so far the longest I've written, I hope someone will like it;).
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New Opportunity
She felt alone, completely alone. On the roof of a building, I had decided, if anyone cared seriously to take into account not mind not living anyone when he was dead.
the icy night air touched his skin, making it tremble but no matter, had already taken a decision would comply.
had not left any letter or had not said anything to anyone, do not believe in that saying goodbye. His parents were not going to matter, since he had killed his sister to her mom did not care about anything else in life. Maybe if he died he would feel better or relieved, because he felt like that ... like a burden to her, not only for herself but also for his father to he almost no longer visible from the car accident where the only one that died was Arha, his father was devoted entirely to work and came only to eat and sleep, get up so early that Kyuhyun saw the just a few minutes before going to school, a place where things did not improve either.
was a good student, yes, but that's not filled, much less made him feel better. The teachers noticed it, but it was the unique and noticeable as someone shout a trophy, looked at him a moment but did not take the time to know, just enough for them to know I was good at math and nothing Masy to Kyuhyun that was not enough, he did not want that, I wanted be important to someone. I wanted to wanted to be known, wanted to feel that it meant something at least for anyone in this world.
nothing was like before, when his sister lived his family was very happy, and never cares too much not having friends at school, at home as Arha encouraged him and loved him, but au n that made him feel needed.
chatted every day and although I was in college asked for help in some courses, she was the one who could keep the peace in the house at times which seemed impossible, and was Ely mediator between his parents repeatedly complained because I had no home, no friends or girls, and she explained to them that was a bit withdrawn but was not that bad. And he argued saying that his brother was just for her so do not need any girl.
And now he had lost that, I felt I had lost everything, that really there was no need to stay alive, anyway there was nothing to wait and nobody held him , to not take that step that would lead him to the roof void, more beyond the edge and would break the air and fall from the top floor of all the departments where he lived, or rather surviving.
If you did not do that, if not committed suicide, the school days would be equal, no one ever spoke, and there was no reason for that to change, at home his mother did not would ignore any more, it seemed that she too would never leave the depresióny now that I thought maybe if I had to leave a letter saying he hoped it better or go to some therapy, but may think that this decision was going to take his fault and he did not want that. Do not want anyone to feel guilt about the last thing I wanted to take and I was sure would lead him to happiness or at least to a better place, away from all that all that solitude fríoy I felt for months now.
took a step further, was, if they estimated it at less than one meter from the edge, feeling the adrenaline flowing through your bloodstream with strength, tingled the fingertips of anxiety or of the desire was not sure looked to the sky. Until the moon had risen in all its splendor to say goodbye to him, smiled, if he was going to see something for the last time he liked to go the full moon surrounded by stars in the cloudless sky on a cool night summer.
last thought in your family, but not in the shattered that this was now but after the accident, in that family before last Christmas, that picture in which still to clearly remember all smiling and happy just being together, went a step further, now just one step away from what he hoped meet again with her sister and at some point after many years, his parents also accompany and again back to being the family of the picture.
The only regret was the way I would find, thought of other options, but suicide inside his home did not want do not want his mother was there every time part to remind Arha also remember him hanging in the bathroom bleeding to death in her room for having cut the veins. So the only solution I found was that, be dropped from the roof to a rear garden, no cars no noise without people who saw the fateful moment, only the sky the stars the air stirred up more and use whatever left fall and felt that emptiness in the stomach and the moon, the moon would be his only witness.
mentally said goodbye to her parents and took a deep breath, stared at the sky, leaving the moon it sonreíry blinded before proceeding to step more ... the last step.
smiled, but instead of being in a vacuum felt a terrible blow to the head and as his back hit the pavement hard, feeling an extra weight on your body, heavy enough to belong to one person.
Everything happened so fast that he kept his eyes closed for a few seconds.
had not been able, had failed ... No. Someone had stopped, had been so close and the person who was above him, perhaps trying to stop another suicide attempt, had been separated from the opportunity to meet her again sister. And the words
"suicide attempt" it sounded horrible, because he wanted it to be only an attempt, because everything was perfect for it and had ruined. Now he could never try again, when his parents learned he would be locked up trying, they say, away from this bad decision when the only thing that was going to remove happiness .
And now he kept his eyes closed and no surprise but for the pain, the pain of knowing defeat and wept, he felt as tears traveled his cheeks and raised his arm to cover his face. I could not believe he had fallen so deep, that had bottomed out and had not made up free of that oppression in the chest that left him no peace, and thought disappear to the death.
- Really Kyuhyun attempted suicide?
The voice was soft and sweet, despite belonging to a boy Kyuhyun liked but that sounded familiar.
lowered his arm and found her face, opened his eyes and mole that the person who had become the perfect suicide in an attempt just now sat on him was a companion of his room. Lee Sungmin if I remember.
said nothing, he knew his actions were obvious enough to answer that question.
- Kyuhyun Why?
opened his eyes a little surprised, but it burned and I knew that probably were red with tears, could not understand why he cared to other reasons for wanting to leave this world.
- What are you doing here?
sit and bounce is wanted that boy over him but the lowest resisted and put his hands on the shoulders of Kyuhyun, and keep pushing for lying on the floor.
idiot "I live here so long and how come you have not noticed.
not understand why he wanted that boy had never spoken more than a hello, could not be considered friends, understand that to see someone trying to jump off the roof of the building would stop, but inquire into their motives was not something I should do and less to put as much emphasis on that.
I do not care where you live, let me go.
- For what! So when I try to jump back flip or now you're going to stop in the middle of the track and you let a truck run over you. NO, do not you go.
"You have no right ...
"Yes if I have.
"No, you do not even know who you are.
-Lee Sungmin, we studied together for Cho Kyuhyun last year, a taste.
His voice was rough and now getting more and more force on the shoulders of Kyuhyun, and it was already too angry. What the hell this guy wanted to stop smiling hyperactive in the room with him, the lonely nerd, what was happening did not understand, but I wanted to go, run far away and hide under of a car or behind a tree and never to see again that look full of disappointment that Sungmin black eyes reflected at that time.
"Yes I know your name, I referíaa that.
His voice had gone in a lower tone than he had claimed, had turned his face to stop seeing those black orbs felt it pierced. She felt vulnerable
with that guy and he did not want that, I wanted to return to the edge, I wanted to go back to the image of the sky the stars the wind and the moon and not think nothing more, but Sungmin was determined to avoid it.
"I know what you mean and it does not matter now answered Why?
"I have no reason to say anything.
- WHY! Why! ... just tell me because ...
And his voice became a whisper, and his tears were able to dig into the heart of Kyuhyun and did not understand what happened because I did not feel subject to no one, but at the same time I wanted to hold Sungmin and to make those tears that wet your shoulders now stop.
Soledad.
He also responded in a whisper, not wanting to scare him more. Sungmin buried his face in his neck and shoulder higher and Kyuhyun felt the warmth of the tears ran down his neck and lost between the pole and your skin.
"I am alone, I feel very alone. Also I have problems, but no suicide attempt Kyuhyun me, you try to improve and to do that have to be alive 'you know not?
"Yes, yes I know.
"Then why ...
Why ... he knew very well why a few minutes ago there was not one ounce of doubt about why their actions, but now say it out loud, said to tell him, Sungmin, towards which all seem less serious than it was moments ago.
"I see no way out, not the meeting. I feel trapped in a perverse joke of destiny in which I'll always lose. Let me not more so, not worth it.
That had to remember that, no longer worth it, I could not let that guy I did doubt his decision could not allow login if the final was always going to be just the perennial sadness Ely.
"Of course it's worth, it may not be so selfish you thought about your parents, your mother, how would you feel if she lost her other son? - Sungmin sighed - ; Arha How would you feel if I saw you trying to kill yourself? What would you think?
"Do not," was what he thought his sister would say, she would enter razóny would show that there is still hope. There is always hope.
not prevent those words bouncing on his head, even I could hear the voice of his sister diciéndosela. Sungmin had made it into his head and make it think twice.
spent several minutes in which Kyuhyun thought about all the things I had not considered before. One of them was her future, despite all the suffering, he still had a future ahead. The hope, hope that someday mejoraríay all things would be better, so many things I still had not done or had not experienced and felt bad, bad, realizing that if not Sungmin at that time by his mother probably would have realized his decisióny be lamenting the loss of his youngest son.
"If you're not going to stop trying to escape right?
hand He wiped the traces of tears from her face, smiling a little.
"I'm not trying to jump back if you're worried about.
"Yes that's what worries me.
felt like the extra weight on him vanished while Sungmin sat at his side.
"I always wanted to speak before the accident occurred AHRA, after that I simply did not pay attention to anything or anyone anymore.
not looking, I felt again the cold air hit your skin, but now it was different, now wanted to record it and never forget that. I wanted to experience thousands of nights, I wanted to see different stars, wanted to feel and knowing you live.
"I wanted to talk, but after the death of your sister abstracted in your own world. No you gave me and hour and did not know how you back to reality - Sungmin hugging his legs while also looking at the sky "So I dedicated myself to see you as more and seemed more consumed by sadness .
After a moment also lay on the floor, Kyuhyun close enough to feel the heat emitting body, and smiled a few moments ago when he pulled at the exact moment before he jump to a high vacuum had been frozen. When pulled over it to keep him on the floor was fríoy seemed lifeless, but for too many days and looked like the living dead, so now feel at least warm conversation with him was something I had not thought to accomplish.
- How do I find?
-I go up here, to clear my mind, breathe a little and saw you standing at the edge ... Do not think much to know you were trying to do.
took a deep breath, felt as their lungs filled with air and breathed slowly, feeling anew each part of your body, every muscle that showed he was still alive and only had to thank the person who now was His side, transmitting a single bit of body heat with the touch of her arms.
Thanks. For stop, thank you very much.
"Just promise me something," he said as he turned and grabbed Kyuhyun's arm between your hands to see that still there, yes I was there, support your face in the opposite arm while still talking "Never gonna do that. Never ever.
sighed "Do not worry about it, I realized that I have every reason to continue here and keep trying ... And you know something - he said turning to stare him in the eye - The moon looks au n better from here.
"True. You have to stay here a while longer ...
"No hurry, we have every night and every night to continue ... if you want clear.
"Yes - he murmured, smiling again.
Neither said anything more for a long time, just let time pass while enjoying the full moon and the stars shone rattled, until he felt Kyuhyun Sungmin breathing became ; a more rhythmic and deep.
not really understand where this guy had left, I wanted to think that maybe Arha commanded to avoid committing the stupidity or perhaps just at the right time was at the right time, but Sungmin either way just to make a grand entrance in his life, and felt or wanted} { it was to be a long long time driving.
He took a lock of his face and went to kiss her forehead.
After that I get up to accompany him to his home, discovering that he was alone on different floors, exchanging smiles Sungmin fired him promise that the day would wait and go together to school and not knowing either, that night marked the start of something special between them.
At home, mom would receive Kyuhyun smiling as he had been worried about him, and it does not tell you anything because it is not necessary, because they never think of doing something similar and because for the first time in a long time he feels that everything can be seriously improved. ..
And from the window of his room look at the moon, knowing that this time though the moon is the same, and everything is different now because someone you think and want to believe that somewhere there higher above the clouds in the sky, all that happened that night, all good of course, has to do with Arha ...
and will never know how right had.
Somewhere beyond the clouds ... "Thank God, help my brother and avoid committing this stupid"
"Do not worry Arha, was meant to know this guy, and could not have picked a better time this " " Sungmin ... It's a good boy, I hope you know Kyuhyun care "
" They will be well AHRA, quiet, will be fine " FIN
Yui ~
